Not sure if anyone knows but I updated my WLS blog with comparison pics.
X is done helping me with shit around here as of end of this year. Which is fine. For some reason I don’t even feel anything except total apathy about it. Normally I would be totally freaking out but honest to goodness–I don’t give a fuck. Seriously.
I’ve paid people lots this year to do stuff for me. Unfortunately it seems I like to pay fix-it people twice for the same job. Example–I had a guy work on my rental who said he did stuff that he did NOT do. And the things he did do ALL had to be redone. How did that happen? Easy–I wasn’t expecting him to be done and that day when he needed to be paid I was way too sick to walk over there an inspect everything…..and he knew it. I trusted him and I don’t know why I bother cuz people are fucking asshole scammers. As it is I also have to have the guy who did the insurance work come back and fix some shit. It would be most awesome if people would actually do what they say and do a good job. Because I have a TON of money to rip up I guess I like paying people twice for the same job. Even the carpet the fix-it guy put in my rental—I had to go through hell to get receipts from Menards and then fill out forms and send them asking the company for a refund. I sent them pictures (the carpet was running!) and I did get approved for a refund but now I have to buy new carpet and pay yet again for someone to install it. I shouldn’t have to deal with that shit–the fix-it guy should have but that wasn’t going to happen. After he didn’t bother showing up and I found out his work wasn’t acceptable and he lied to me—I wrote him a long nasty email and fired his ass–although I’m certain he wasn’t coming back anyways–he knows he totally ripped me off and was running off with the money laughing I’m sure.
Only good news is that my tenant does do a great job at things. He is fixing my rental up bits at a time and it is coming along nicely. In return though I get no rent :( We work out prices and then subtract from rent due. Right now for the next several months I won’t have any income which is fine. He takes care of the yard great too. There seems to have been a misunderstanding though cuz he asked me to pay for oil and spark plugs for the snowblower. That is his bill not mine but he is the best tenant ever so I’m def. not going to argue with him over stupid shit. Bad news is he won’t do plumbing, electrical or carpet/trim finish. So I still need to hire another person at some point. He keeps the garage as tidy as it will ever get, he washes the tractor after he uses it, he keeps the rental clean and works on the things he is comfortable with though. Other bad news is paying for supplies–ugh. Oh–and I’ve had a few rental problems –repairs that needed to be taken care of right away (toilet was running all the time etc). Was a simple part and X was able to figure out how to do it.
There have been a few things tied to the rental which I can’t blog about. One involves legal shit and the other revolves around trying to get work done by someone who I may have to get a PPO against. Fun times. Life isn’t without risks I guess.
I think X said he will still take things (things I sell) to T-town for me. I’m certain 90% of my sales are from there. The thing is—I’m done selling. Ya, you read that right. I want to sell the shit I have and be done. I just don’t care anymore. I’m burnt out and I’m tired. I have so much shit I need to rid and then I want to rid shit from my house too. So I guess I’m NOT done selling but I won’t be adding things unless I see something with a huge profit margin that I know will sell right away. Like I did good on the go-pro cameras. Picked up on clearance at walmart for like $30.00 each I think and I sell them for $95 and I have 1 left out of 4……not bad. Last one will sell–not worried about that.
So my health insurance is being tripled starting January. I’m going to be paying around $350 per month–bhahahahahahaha–what-fucking-ever! So you think I would be doing the opposite–I should be freaking out between X not helping and my insurance…..normally I would be in “must sell” overdrive. I’m tired of living in overdrive worrying about shit. Tired of dealing with X even though he is rarely here anymore….it is still miserable unless other people are here and then he acts human.
Right now I have my propane paid for the winter even knowing that DD will be upstairs (that is going to be a major ice/roof issue). I have my electric paid up for a year now. I’m a month ahead on my house payment. There are just flat out some things I won’t ever have to buy again from my extreme couponing days: laundry soap, dishwasher soap, pads, toilet paper etc. Food–I don’t really eat. My isopure is a killer though but when u consider not really having to buy much food it equals out. I’m sick of buying food and throwing it away–that sucks. My birthday month sucks–my house insurance is due and that is over 1K, plus car insurance –another $550 and license renewal/tags etc. All due that month. Guess the point is I don’t know how I will do it……but I will. I do it every fucking year on shit. I’m feeling I’m ready to gut everything. I want to get to a point where I can move into a small 1-story home where I just have shit I need—which that is going to take a lot of time.
I won’t be moving from here for awhile–it just doesn’t make sense. DD’s school is close–walking distance really. Town is close. Beautifully scenic looking out my windows. Dislike this town a LOT. Dislike my neighbors a LOT. However it doable–I’ve been here almost 17 fricken years. T-town rent prices are over 1500+ on average now. bhahahahahahaha. Whatever. My house payment is affordable—well I should say it is definitely affordable in comparison to my other options. I know the odds are stacked against me. I know I can’t have a house payment by the time DD graduates. The thing is I’m good at beating odds and even if I don’t –again–I will make SOMETHING work. Honestly I’m fucking proud of myself. I mean my rental got trashed–no rental income. I was paying for TWO housing bills (2 propane bills, 2 electric, plowing and more) with LESS income. Yet I survived. I’m paying on a house that used to take TWO incomes to pay. ALL my bills are paid every damn month. I’ve NEVER not once dealt with a collection agency my entire life. My credit teeters between 780 and 810+ and I’ve done this on my own even with my health and mental health issues. I think that is something to be proud of since my ex-husband isn’t even capable of paying NOTHING but child support and has filed bankruptcy with 50K in debt. So although I won’t be adding more shit to sell (besides stuff I have that isn’t listed–shit in my house–whatever)….I know I will be ok.
In the meantime I’m living life. Been on a lot of dates of which none I’ve been impressed with. I guess I’m picky which probably means I will forever be alone. I just feel I’ve busted my fucking ass my entire life. I don’t feel a guy should walk into my life with nothing and get all the shit I’ve worked for. I want him to have a good career, a house, and vehicle. I will NEVER deal with another guy like my X again. Lesson learned. I’m looking for an actual MAN–someone capable of making fucking decisions and being the leader. It would be nice if for the first time in my life I had a rock for once. Done with immature and irresponsible guys. To be honest I wish I was a lesbian and could be done with men all together LOL. Just kidding. I’m going to be 41 though and the likelihood of me finding anyone compatible ……with what I’m wanting…..probably isn’t going to happen. I don’t know how my sister does it. She has always had a guy–always. I can’t even find anyone worthy of a second date. I don’t understand how the entire male species can be so fucked up. I’ve been back on my own now for over 4 years—actually I think this oct will be 5 years. I don’t mind being on my own but it does get really lonely and depressing at times. I think we all want to be loved, a shoulder to lean on, a best friend. Usually when I set out to do something I succeed. This is one area though that I don’t hold much hope. I wish I had more guidance in this area.